gotta have you

the world slows down, but my heart beats fast right now

she's trying to get these strings to fray

she wants to break free

no more of your control

to hold her back 

when she tries to flea

you've got her dangerously wrapped around 

your malicious finger

keeping her under your demand

leaving no room to linger

it's time for you to give it up and quit

and stop treating her like your puppet

do you take the non believers?

now and then my heart would break

but my soul would reassure me you weren't a mistake

my conscious had gotten me feeling guilty for my own pain

but my faith convinced me it wouldn't happen again

my restless tears were pleading for an end

but my naive hopes promised things would mend

incomparable, something that couldn't be beat

baby our love was nothing but bittersweet

where would we be now

it won't stay this way forever.

i promise things will get better

i don't know what i've done, or if i like what i've begun

i counted all my mistakes today

everything from a to z 

not skipping a single thing

i wrote them all down one, two then three

some i smiled at, others made me ache

some i didn't see coming, and some i couldn't help but make

going down the endless list

i realized something very true:

through all my naive faults

my biggest mistake,was letting go of you.

one night to speed up truth

i need for you to be happy.

down the line

if everything happens for a reason

that we we're meant to love and fall

and we stood together through the seasons

because it was destiny's call

then i wouldn't no longer trust fate

'cause it let me lose my only soul mate

the fortune cookie lied

and the stars weren't a very good guide

so if i could have taken it all back 

believe me i would have pushed rewind

so i wouldn't have you trapped in my mind

if i don't say this now, i will surely break

every place i go, the raindrops always seem to follow

i run passed a dampened tree

feeling the cold, wet bullet of rainfall on me

even under a sheltered roof ,the wind blows rain in my direction

failing my sad attempt at decent protection

so i became used to it, didn't make a fuss

it was something forgotten, something i wouldn't discuss

once i stumbled into you, you made me feel like cinderella

you promised things would be okay

while you held me under your black umbrella.

as for loneliness, she greets me every morning

my days of waiting we're coming to an end

counting fallen leaves until i received what you promised you'd send

we had both changed by the time that wrinkled envelope sat in tin

things had changed, we had both been living a sin

i read with caution not skipping a single word

picturing your voice in my head 

listening to how it would it would have been heard

the truth was in ink right in front of me

but somehow i felt hollow, i didn't want to believe

you didn't say 'i love you'  you said it was over instead

that red flag could have never prepared me for the words i read

when will you see that i am all that you've got?

you're hard to read, with your poker face

hard to predict, you're like an ace

if love's the game you're playing for

you need a better hand

cause i've got the winning score

don't lose hope,don't give up

play your cards and you might find luck

you never know when the game ends and reality starts

and you never know when you'll draw the queen of hearts

x + o

you made me lose my faith in love.

i used to wait with a hopeful heart

it all disappeared, once you threw your dart

now it's all all numb and hazy

baby, without you, without love

i've gone crazy.

don't break my heart or i will break your heart shaped glasses

piece my heart back together

it aches ,it hurts

and i just want it to go away

not just for a moment but for good

i'm tired of putting it back together

everytime i think i've got it figured out

you come around and drop it

so i'm lyring on the floor

crawling the floor

picking up the shattered bits

waiting for you to break me again

you make me feel like home is where you are

you've got me hooked 

your lies just sound so good

you tell me what i want to hear

i'm hypnotized, and that i fear

you've got me fooled

you're stuck in my head

whispers i can't shake

i'm still not over you

it's impossible to fake

don't make me wait

i miss you

and now it feels like your hallow

it breaks my heart, it's hard to swallow

where did your soul go?

tell me dear, i need to know

you used to laugh and hold my hand

now i can't break the silence so, alone i stand

my conscience is begging me to cry out

i try to speak, but instead i pout

i miss you.

when will you return?

because baby it's killing me that you're right here

but i can't seem to find you, no matter how near

maybe i would have been something you'd be good at

tired of looking for four leaf clovers

when all i can find is three

tired of wishing on that shining star

in the distance but seeming too far

tired of keeping my fingers crossed

hoping to replace the one i lost

all this looking can't do no harm

but it still wont lead me to you,

my lucky charm.

alright, i can say what you want me to

i didn't know this town was only for lovers

i'll be catching the next train out

seems only wrong love follows me around

but i learnt the hard way

that people don't mean what they say

so when you say i love you

i hear you being untrue

so when you say you love me

i know there's no guarantee. 

keep your love locked down

mister, you're a thief.

you see, you stole my heart

so now it's back to the start

it was ruby red

newly stitched up by thread

and part of me let you take it

that's something i must admit

but you paid no attention 

while you forgot to mention

you'd break my heart after all

i would have held on tighter

i would have been a fighter

but little did i know 

i'd have to pick out patches

to hide your scars 

with a color that matches

pretend and keep it covered

so nobody could know how i've suffered

you got me all wrong

ripped up jeans remind me of you

that nobody band and that midnight shade of blue

the smell of cologne hiding cigarette musk

the sandy beach we slept on at dusk

the city lights remind me of you

the cold mountain air, your jaded tattoo

i wonder if you walk the streets, ever thinking of me

because i can't get you out of my head.

no matter my plea.

blue to gray, grow up and blow away

i've been running 'round this city for hours and days

honey i promise that it's just a phase

looking for nothing but finding so many clues

'cause now that you're gone i have nothing to lose

picked all the petals 

and found out the truth

"he loves me not"

i've wasted my youth

i promised myself i'd erase you

i can't and it's way overdue

my head's in a daze but my feet are on the ground

i'm not lost i just want to be found.

your smile is a pleasant change from before

my song is love

I don't get you 
I can't forget what you've forgotten
all along I've never been so alone

don't cry out ,cease fire

I was pretending
Your secret kiss of confidence
Was my escape
The perfect game to play

Ten nine eight and I'm breaking away

I'm all dressed up and I'm ready to play

Seven six five four and I'm all over you

Counting three two one and I'm having fun

je te connais par coeur

these are the words i can't find the courage for

the ones that haunt me 

the ones i can't ignore

no more secrets no more lies

time to fess up. nothing left to deny

i'm not in love with you anymore

it's harder to admit than you think

i was finally over you but then i blinked

now i need you to disappear

because it's been long enough, almost a year

let's say it now and truly mean it

our love's gone

we can finally admit

you could be happy

she's just a girl who wanted to forget him

but he's just that boy who kept drawing her in

she burnt all his letters and learned to forget his name

he came back. her heart was broken. he was to blame

she took her chances, she took the risk

because that boy was too hard to resist

she didn't want to be alone

but still his intentions remained unknown

sunrise to sunset, summer to fall

 do people r e a l l y change after all?

you finished every breath for me

i'm not playing hide and seek

truth is, i'm trying. i'm just too weak.

maybe if you found me while i was getting lost

that line separating us, would have never been crossed

i guess it's what you get for playing with fire

but i didn't know heartbreak came with what i couldn't help but desire

i'm not blaming you for how i've been so blind

im only blaming you for leaving me behind

everybodycomesandgoes

but you're the one my heart chose.

cauchemars d'amour

je sais la verité

que ca ne marcherais jamais

mais je veux le croire

croire en toi et moi ce soir 

on peut oublier la realité

et on peut mettre nos doutes de côté,

un nuit seulement, nous deux comme on etait

en amour et souriant

mais ma cherie, demain je réveillerai

et je serai brève

car c'est juste 

une rêve

well do you want to fall apart

there's a fine line between you and me, and what used to be

you convinced me that we're meant to be, you told me it was destiny

baby, for you i gave my all

but soon you were gone, no one there to catch my fall

you fooled me.

was i really that naive?

baby,you made it so easy to believe

all the questions that were unanswered remain

but i'm ready to let go now

you hurt me and broke me

there's nothing left to explain.

truth is i am done pretending

follow me, take my hand

let me show you where i stand

the water's deep but i'm still treading through

with hope for me and you

but you're not making it any easier

i'm searching for that missing link

while you're looking down, watching me sink

i'm fighting for what's left of us but the current's getting stronger

the waves are wearing me out

and finally i start to doubt

i've realized you've given up, you let go

and you let our love drown long ago.

always love

under different stars and a different moon

our souls will dance once again

the seasons will change and forget about us

but we'll still be in love then

our destinies joined our paths

and granted us a second chance

another chance for our hopeless romance

under different clouds and a different sun

our souls will dance again

they'll fall in love just like before

while the waves roll in on the shore

honey i can promise this, i know it's not the end

so don't say goodbye just yet

because our souls will never forget

the day we danced, the day we met.

heaven can wait, we're only watching the skies

love.

It's the strongest force in the world. It sounds so simple but it's incredibly complicated and tragically most of us spend our entire lives trying to figure it out. It's the reason and the factor that alters our destinies, decides our fate and gives us hope for something more. Love's what keeps us connected as people and allows us to feel truly alive. It's also the cause of many decisions we later regret and ultimately, love is what brings heartbreak. But through all the pain and chapters of darkness in our lives, love is our healing our strength and our hope. Whether it be from family, a friend or a soulmate, love can brighten your soul. We shouldn't take it for granted and we should hold on to love because no matter the hardships, we can all get through it. Everything happens for a reason and sometimes things fall apart but in the end love conquers all.

here it goes again

you know i'll let you in

you held my hand under a black painted sky freckled with stars 

while you whispered in my ear

the night was calm but my heart was racing

this was the feeling i had been chasing

there it was, a shooting star

it guided us to where we are

it flew so fast across the sky

just said hello then left,goodbye

every time i see you falling

i get down on my knees and pray

waiting for that final moment

you say the words that i can't say

read my mind

so many questions crowd in my head

but i can't pick out the right words

so the words remain unsaid.

i keep thinkging maybe it's for the best

that i should stand quiet

and just forget about all the rest

but my heart can't seem to let go

my heart won't say no

i can't pretend any longer

because the fact is

im becoming weak not any stronger

it's finally time to speak up and unwind

and it's time to find a piece of mind

i'm going to make all my dreams come true.

secondhand happiness

i wish you could see it's not the end,

there's so much more 

have

faith. 

one headlight

Regrets. We all have them. We've all wished we could go back and erase the past at one point or another to make our mistakes vanish. ' I wish i never did that' or ' i wish that never happened' have been on everyone's mind. But ultimately, the biggest regrets are the chances we didn't take. Whether they're life altering or simple, that feeling of 'what if' will always echo in your head. 

Should i take the jump? But what if i fall? 

But what if that feeling of euphoria  was worth the fall in the end? 

I don't want to sit gray one day and wonder about all the times i could of, but didn't. The thought of not being able to go back is cold enough but to play out the possibilities that could have been is the bare worst. 

life's too short.

tied my hands to an aching heart 

to keep it from  f  a  l  l  i  n  g  apart

covered my troubled tearful eyes

looking through all your mirrored lies

is this what we were waiting for?

baby show me a sign that there's more

tired of being scared to fall

thinking you won't catch me after all

i only wish to breathe easy

to laugh and to forget you 

carelessly.

"You ever look at a picture of yourself and see a stranger in the background? It makes you wonder how many strangers have pictures of you, how many moments of other peoples lives have we been in, we're we a part of someone's life when their dreams came true, or were we there when their dreams died. Did we keep trying to get in, as if we were somehow destined to be there, or did the shot take us by surprise. Just think, you could be a big part of someone else's life, and not even know it."

no this isn't a happy little rhyme, give me time give me time

  

i always have this extremely high standard in my mind for you, and it's almost as if i want you to fail me everytime... i expect you to. But there you go proving me wrong. I'm sorry for ever doubting you even though i know i will still go back to these old habits i want to desperately break from. Maybe, it's because you're the one who hurt her, the one i've had to hear her cry about for years. I need to accept the fact you're not the villain i've been told. Because you hurt her and broke her heart, it's so hard for me to trust you. But it's equally hard not to. I always expect disappointment and the worse from you but you somehow in the end, there's always a smile you leave me with. I'm sorry for any bad thoughts, i'm sorry for anytime i've made you my minority and her my priority, i'm sorry for ever hurting you. I love you, and that's all there is to it. So take my hand and give me that comfort you once brought. 

Ignite the flame, and shine the light.

high tide or low tide

running through the cool grass

tickling my bare feet

my heart's beating way too fast

a feeling lingers that i can't beat

you caught my breath

lost my footpath

i can smell the ocean

now its just you and me

hold me 

hold me

don't let go

let's get stuck in this moment.

tell me it's only a bad dream

not fair not fair not fair not fair. 

i dont want to have to give you away. 

summer skin

Squeaky swings and tall grass 

The longest shadows ever cast 

The water's warm and children swim 

And we frolicked about in our summer skin

I don't recall a single care 

Just greenery and humid air 

Then Labor day came and went 

And we shed what was left of our summer skin 

On the night you left I came over 

And we peeled the freckles from our shoulders 

Our brand new coats so flushed and pink

And I knew your heart I couldn't win

Cause the season's change was a conduit 

And we'd left our love in our summer skin

-death cab