no this isn't a happy little rhyme, give me time give me time

  

i always have this extremely high standard in my mind for you, and it's almost as if i want you to fail me everytime... i expect you to. But there you go proving me wrong. I'm sorry for ever doubting you even though i know i will still go back to these old habits i want to desperately break from. Maybe, it's because you're the one who hurt her, the one i've had to hear her cry about for years. I need to accept the fact you're not the villain i've been told. Because you hurt her and broke her heart, it's so hard for me to trust you. But it's equally hard not to. I always expect disappointment and the worse from you but you somehow in the end, there's always a smile you leave me with. I'm sorry for any bad thoughts, i'm sorry for anytime i've made you my minority and her my priority, i'm sorry for ever hurting you. I love you, and that's all there is to it. So take my hand and give me that comfort you once brought. 

Ignite the flame, and shine the light.

high tide or low tide

running through the cool grass

tickling my bare feet

my heart's beating way too fast

a feeling lingers that i can't beat

you caught my breath

lost my footpath

i can smell the ocean

now its just you and me

hold me 

hold me

don't let go

let's get stuck in this moment.

tell me it's only a bad dream

not fair not fair not fair not fair. 

i dont want to have to give you away. 

summer skin

Squeaky swings and tall grass 

The longest shadows ever cast 

The water's warm and children swim 

And we frolicked about in our summer skin

I don't recall a single care 

Just greenery and humid air 

Then Labor day came and went 

And we shed what was left of our summer skin 

On the night you left I came over 

And we peeled the freckles from our shoulders 

Our brand new coats so flushed and pink

And I knew your heart I couldn't win

Cause the season's change was a conduit 

And we'd left our love in our summer skin

-death cab

time will tell

Of course i miss you but i know things are going to be really different when you come home. We've all changed and im scared things wont be the same as before. it’s hard to just bounce back as if things were never really different.

Im scared to be disappointed and to realize that maybe were too different now. Maybe things will never be normal again. I hope not.

I guess we’ll just have to wait and find out?

please let me forget you.

pretty love notes scribbled with promises

tick tock tick tock ,

unlock the silver chain to love

free my heart, tear off the glove

foolish false hopes burn to ashes

where will you be when my heart crashes?

you're holding on to her hand

the one who's name you drew in the sand

do i still have a chance?

the song's not over, there's one more dance

this feels so wrong this feels so right

you gave me back my faith tonight.

what you see depends on where you stand

a lack of color

this is fact not fiction

THINGS CHANGE PEOPLE CHANGE.

where were you when i needed you?

i'm not going to let you come back to me as if you never left. You need to push a little, you need to give me a little faith in you because right now the only thing keeping me here is my heart that wants to give you another chance. consider me, acknowledge me.

give me a sign

can't make up my mind

all my thoughts are tied up

in a foggy haze that won't seem to fade

i'm uncertain which way to go

and if it's really worth it  in the end anyway.

blink

Do you know where your heart is?

Do you think you kind find it?

Do you know where your love is?

Do you think that you lost it?

.. Nothing turned out how you wanted.